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Life at Work

c4ndy — Thu, 02 Sep 2010 17:47:57 +0000

Another long and boring day at work. So I thought maybe I would write a little update. So, single again. Yay and nay. But mostly yay. It’s been awesome having time to do stuff for myself, work out and see my friends. Haven’t been out to party though. Still at the weight loss clinic. It’s been a slow summer at work. Not very busy at all. Lately the days have been feeling longer as our patient census has been falling, hopefully it picks up now that Fall is just around the corner.
But I’m going for an interview today. Maybe there will be some more changes in my life. A lot of changes, all for the better, however change is always stressful no matter how you look at it. Break up, my brother moving away, boys, and now work. Seems like a lot. I’m looking forward to this weekend for some time to just deal with it all without a million people around me all the time. I can’t wait.
PS I miss my macbook. My family has taken it over to use my webcam for skyping my brother. I haven’t been able to get anything done. Lame

August?

c4ndy — Sat, 07 Aug 2010 21:34:17 +0000

How is it already August? This summer has gone by way to fast, which is really depressing because that means it’s going to start getting cold again. I just wish Winter would go by just as fast. Side note: More snowboarding this year. Been pretty busy, mostly with work this summer, but yeah. I just can’t believe it’s already almost over. Maybe i need to go on a southern hemisphere trip this year, since this summer i didn’t do a trip as exciting as last summer. I really wanted to go back to Paris. The plan was to maybe go live over there for a couple of months and learn French this late summer-early fall, but the funds aren’t all there yet. Maybe i’ll push it to late spring of next year so i can save up a lot more money. I was also thinking about writing the American Nursing exam, maybe move down to Phoenix instead. I bought a study guide and everything like almost two months ago, and i still haven’t cracked it open, however i did just finish reading Eat, Pray, Love. Amazing memoir/autobiography of Elizabeth Gilbert and the chronicle of her year-long journey to find a balance of pleasure and devotion in her life. Amazingly inspirational this book is, while also causing the travel bug inside of to become famished and restless.
Well, maybe it’s not so much that i want to go somewhere, it’s more of the lack of challenge or monotony i’ve been experiencing in my life right now. The idea of learning a new language or moving to another city excites me in a giddy and scary way. I think the problem is, is that it scares me more then it excites me.

Go Celtics

c4ndy — Fri, 18 Jun 2010 21:37:01 +0000

So I’m sitting in the pub watching game 7 of the nba finals. I’m satisfied from eating my fish and chips, but the game 7′s of this year have been have been dull to say the least. Maybe it’s too early, it’s only half way through the first quarter.
So to follow up with less recent posts, I now have a boyfriend, hence the most probable excuse as to the waste of this website. I’m still working for the diet and weight loss clinic, hopefully not for much longer. I went to an interview for a recovery room nurse position on wednesday, so hopefully all goes as planned. Also, I sold and bought a new car. I bought a 2003 jeep tj sahara. It’s pretty awesome. If it ever gets nicer out maybe ill put up the soft top. Have I mentioned it’s been raining for like 3 weeks. Lame.

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My Life is Average

c4ndy — Mon, 10 May 2010 02:54:30 +0000

So i paid for another year for my domain at the beginning of April. i just can’t see myself parting with this website just yet, however i know it being under utilized is an overstatement. I’ve been itching to make a new layout, i just haven’t had time, or any creative feelings web-wise lately.
However, it has come into my possession: A girl’s guide to decorating. LOVE! At the moment, is has been making me want to take apart my current huge office desk, take it to my dad’s office, and purchase a cheap antique-y looking desk (smaller then i have right now… by a lot, i’ve never needed that much desk space, ever), and maybe paint the drawers, and replace the handles, giving it a modern spin on something so wonderfully used. I’ve seen a couple i like, ranging from free to 150$, however, i don’t know how happy my mom would be if i took the current desk out of my room. My dad said he would take the desk, but my mom wasn’t so thrilled. Summer is coming closer, so i think it will be easier, however i know i will need a second person to help carry the table top when i take it apart. Very heavy.
One project at a time though. I’m also trying to sell my beloved vehicle. I need to upgrade, but i need to get rid of it before my car becomes completely unsellable.
On another note, before i leave, because my grandmother has just stepped in. I’ve been reading the posts on the website “my life is average.” If the posts on there are average, then my life must be under average. lame. Average things i deal with on a not so daily basis includes not being able to find my watch in the morning, or forgetting to plug my phone in, resulting in a naked feeling all day while im at work when i find out my phone is dead. I think that is average.

Lame

c4ndy — Sun, 02 May 2010 01:08:59 +0000

So obviously I haven’t updated in like a million years. However, I have downloaded the wordpress app to my blackberry and I still haven’t tried it. So here it is

I Balled Your Grandma

c4ndy — Mon, 19 Apr 2010 21:15:45 +0000

Do not be offended, it’s the name of the rec dodgeball team that i have found myself to be on. Honestly, i didn’t think it would happen, but now that it is, i’m kinda excited. Our first game is tonight.

Having Guy Friends is Awesome

c4ndy — Mon, 22 Mar 2010 04:36:35 +0000

I forgot about the sanity bringing awesome-ness that guy friends bring when putting guy-related issues into perspective. Other pros of having guy friends is that they always are in the know of all things entertaining, will burn you when necessary and they will tell you what you need to hear, not always exactly what you want to hear.
Don’t get me wrong, i love my gaggle of girls, but sometimes we just need to stop analyzing the situation and just take things for exactly what they were meant simply for in the first place.
Epiphany occurred for me today from something acutely understood by all guys. By being completely forward and honest i have learned to be bold. Maybe not in person, yet, but over BBM. I put myself out there and said exactly what i wanted. No figures of speech, no innuendo, no metaphors, sayings, lines or no reading between the lines. Just straight up language, and i believe the recipient will have the words i said burning into the back of there mind until i see that person again.
Now we just have to see if it worked, or if i have made it more awkward. That’s the problem with BBM, you have to wait and see instead of having the immediate reaction when having a face to face conversation.
Thanks for pushing me into it, guy friend, because what was accomplished in half a day would have taken me like 2 weeks. Awesome

Can’t Sleep

c4ndy — Sun, 14 Mar 2010 12:15:21 +0000

Why? Because something awesome happened tonight that hasn’t happened to me in a very long time. A boy likes me, and i like him back. Sadly, it’s not the sparks and fireworks that i know i feel inside. It’s a depressed, conflicted, maddeningly gut-wrenching thing. It’s like It’s kind of like some sort of complicated situation i am reminded of when i read Shakespeare.
The last couple days i was told to do something about it, and then tonight, i was told to go for it by a whole lot of other people, people seeing this seemingly obvious thing, people that i don’t know very well, but seem to have my best interest at heart.
Going for it resulted in a sad, depressing and ridiculous conversation that in every other situation would have never occurred. I must seem like some cold fish, easily able to redirect my feelings. I don’t know why i shut down into that mode, but what i really wanted was to smile and laugh. It makes me feel frustrated and angry when i can’t do the things i want.
I normally live my life doing what i want, when i want, however sometimes that painfully conflicts with my foresight of being able to see how these things may effect others. It’s just in me. Deep down i want to say fuck it. But why should i even have to think that? This should not be happening.
And yet i am the one who initiated all this, yes, because i believe there to be something there…
What still frustrates me is that I wanted to kiss him, and i didn’t. Damn it.
As the words of a friend may read: Le Sigh.

New Job

c4ndy — Tue, 02 Mar 2010 03:42:42 +0000

New job for me. So yeah, i got a job and a health and diet clinic. It’s kind of weird thinking about the kind of job i have. It’s nothing like what i thought the job i would have after graduating from University. Far from it. I thought i’d be where i wanted to be, in the hospital, working as many hours as i wanted. Secondly, i thought i would have a job instantaneously after graduating. Totally wrong.
2 months later, after working a string of random shifts at the hospital, i landed a full time job. My first day was today. It all seems very do able. I do have to say though, i am someone who likes to be challenged, and i’m not sure how long this clinic will be able to hold me in. At the same time, however, i am intrigued to learn about all the responsibilities, the possibilities, and for personal and professional learning.
I can’t wait.

You Gotta Be Here

c4ndy — Wed, 17 Feb 2010 04:29:57 +0000

The olympics are here again! It’s always a thrill to watch the best of the best perform as olympians representing their home countries. It’s amazing to feel this sense of nationalism by living through the spirit of the people performing for Canada. Watching them, feeling their pain and joy throughout the games. I always felt lucky to be a Canadian and to have the opportunities that have been provided to me that I take for granted that other people would show immense gratitude to experience.
It’s so weird to feel so suddenly nationalistic when for most of my life this feeling just gets tucked away somewhere in the back of my mind. It’s something that i’ve always known, but seldom experience.