So I’m sitting in the pub watching game 7 of the nba finals. I’m satisfied from eating my fish and chips, but the game 7′s of this year have been have been dull to say the least. Maybe it’s too early, it’s only half way through the first quarter.
So to follow up with less recent posts, I now have a boyfriend, hence the most probable excuse as to the waste of this website. I’m still working for the diet and weight loss clinic, hopefully not for much longer. I went to an interview for a recovery room nurse position on wednesday, so hopefully all goes as planned. Also, I sold and bought a new car. I bought a 2003 jeep tj sahara. It’s pretty awesome. If it ever gets nicer out maybe ill put up the soft top. Have I mentioned it’s been raining for like 3 weeks. Lame.

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So i paid for another year for my domain at the beginning of April. i just can’t see myself parting with this website just yet, however i know it being under utilized is an overstatement. I’ve been itching to make a new layout, i just haven’t had time, or any creative feelings web-wise lately.
However, it has come into my possession: A girl’s guide to decorating. LOVE! At the moment, is has been making me want to take apart my current huge office desk, take it to my dad’s office, and purchase a cheap antique-y looking desk (smaller then i have right now… by a lot, i’ve never needed that much desk space, ever), and maybe paint the drawers, and replace the handles, giving it a modern spin on something so wonderfully used. I’ve seen a couple i like, ranging from free to 150$, however, i don’t know how happy my mom would be if i took the current desk out of my room. My dad said he would take the desk, but my mom wasn’t so thrilled. Summer is coming closer, so i think it will be easier, however i know i will need a second person to help carry the table top when i take it apart. Very heavy.
One project at a time though. I’m also trying to sell my beloved vehicle. I need to upgrade, but i need to get rid of it before my car becomes completely unsellable.
On another note, before i leave, because my grandmother has just stepped in. I’ve been reading the posts on the website “my life is average.” If the posts on there are average, then my life must be under average. lame. Average things i deal with on a not so daily basis includes not being able to find my watch in the morning, or forgetting to plug my phone in, resulting in a naked feeling all day while im at work when i find out my phone is dead. I think that is average.

So obviously I haven’t updated in like a million years. However, I have downloaded the wordpress app to my blackberry and I still haven’t tried it. So here it is

I forgot about the sanity bringing awesome-ness that guy friends bring when putting guy-related issues into perspective. Other pros of having guy friends is that they always are in the know of all things entertaining, will burn you when necessary and they will tell you what you need to hear, not always exactly what you want to hear.
Don’t get me wrong, i love my gaggle of girls, but sometimes we just need to stop analyzing the situation and just take things for exactly what they were meant simply for in the first place.
Epiphany occurred for me today from something acutely understood by all guys. By being completely forward and honest i have learned to be bold. Maybe not in person, yet, but over BBM. I put myself out there and said exactly what i wanted. No figures of speech, no innuendo, no metaphors, sayings, lines or no reading between the lines. Just straight up language, and i believe the recipient will have the words i said burning into the back of there mind until i see that person again.
Now we just have to see if it worked, or if i have made it more awkward. That’s the problem with BBM, you have to wait and see instead of having the immediate reaction when having a face to face conversation.
Thanks for pushing me into it, guy friend, because what was accomplished in half a day would have taken me like 2 weeks. Awesome

Why? Because something awesome happened tonight that hasn’t happened to me in a very long time. A boy likes me, and i like him back. Sadly, it’s not the sparks and fireworks that i know i feel inside. It’s a depressed, conflicted, maddeningly gut-wrenching thing. It’s like It’s kind of like some sort of complicated situation i am reminded of when i read Shakespeare.
The last couple days i was told to do something about it, and then tonight, i was told to go for it by a whole lot of other people, people seeing this seemingly obvious thing, people that i don’t know very well, but seem to have my best interest at heart.
Going for it resulted in a sad, depressing and ridiculous conversation that in every other situation would have never occurred. I must seem like some cold fish, easily able to redirect my feelings. I don’t know why i shut down into that mode, but what i really wanted was to smile and laugh. It makes me feel frustrated and angry when i can’t do the things i want.
I normally live my life doing what i want, when i want, however sometimes that painfully conflicts with my foresight of being able to see how these things may effect others. It’s just in me. Deep down i want to say fuck it. But why should i even have to think that? This should not be happening.
And yet i am the one who initiated all this, yes, because i believe there to be something there…
What still frustrates me is that I wanted to kiss him, and i didn’t. Damn it.
As the words of a friend may read: Le Sigh.

New job for me. So yeah, i got a job and a health and diet clinic. It’s kind of weird thinking about the kind of job i have. It’s nothing like what i thought the job i would have after graduating from University. Far from it. I thought i’d be where i wanted to be, in the hospital, working as many hours as i wanted. Secondly, i thought i would have a job instantaneously after graduating. Totally wrong.
2 months later, after working a string of random shifts at the hospital, i landed a full time job. My first day was today. It all seems very do able. I do have to say though, i am someone who likes to be challenged, and i’m not sure how long this clinic will be able to hold me in. At the same time, however, i am intrigued to learn about all the responsibilities, the possibilities, and for personal and professional learning.
I can’t wait.

The olympics are here again! It’s always a thrill to watch the best of the best perform as olympians representing their home countries. It’s amazing to feel this sense of nationalism by living through the spirit of the people performing for Canada. Watching them, feeling their pain and joy throughout the games. I always felt lucky to be a Canadian and to have the opportunities that have been provided to me that I take for granted that other people would show immense gratitude to experience.
It’s so weird to feel so suddenly nationalistic when for most of my life this feeling just gets tucked away somewhere in the back of my mind. It’s something that i’ve always known, but seldom experience.

Time for a new phone!! Finally! So here’s the question: Blackberry Bold or iPhone 3G S. I just can’t decide.
In other news, i still haven’t bought a guitar… maybe after i get my car back from the mechanic. I haven’t taken apart my desk yet, and any prospects for valentine’s day have faded into the mist, lol.
But i’m making money now, so that’s always good, and i have a job prospect with a weight loss – diet clinic. Maybe it’ll pan out and i can quit the coffee shop.
Yay.
Also, check out the website i designed as a side project and a source of income. I’m pretty proud of it:
www.timberridge-homes.com

So, i went in to the bank for a Financial Assessment last week and it got me thinking. To sum up the appointment, i was basically handed a sheet in which i was evaluated financially. People, it looked sad. Fortunately i was able to add, albeit broken, a car and the insurance that i supposedly pay on it. Other then that it looked pretty shit.
I also found out i no longer have health insurance, well it’s not that i found out, i did know, but it was pointed out to me that i still haven’t done anything about it. I am no longer a “dependent,” even though i still live in my parents house and basically pay for nothing going on in my life anymore, because i am now done school.
Still it was sad to see how little my net worth was.
And now i sit here in my room staring at everything that isn’t mine. The only thing of any material worth i have in here is probably the macbook i sit here typing on, my tent, and maybe my iPod. The last probably 3 years of my life i have had an itch to start accumulating things, and now it seems to be an obsession. With the lack of car… i have been sitting on ikea, ebay and kijiji looking for things that i want, things for now and the future. I’ve decided to turn my “mother-in-law” room into a mini – “apartment.” Gay i know, i haven’t come up with a better name, but it’s better then “iPad.” My dad’s all for it. I told him i wanted to take down the massive desk that i never use. He said he would take it to the office. My mom seems mad about it… “you’ll never leave your room, we’ll never see you… blah blah.” I told my mom that i enjoy to be around others, and if i didn’t want to be around others i would have been sitting in the basement watching the huge tv that nobody uses… I love my… she just doesn’t want me to move out till i’m married and never spend any money i make, but to save it for something that doesn’t exist.
So the “stuff”i want to buy, which have been on my mind is a new, a lot smaller, desk, tv, a chaise or loveseat, and a guitar. Yeahhh… stuff.

With all the free time i have in my life right now, i’ve decided, i think, that i will buy a guitar. I went to my local guitar dealer and i found these:

So i’ve narrowed it down between acoustic and electric. The advantage of the acoustic however, is that it is part electric as well, having the ability to be plugged into a jack. They are both beautiful, and so far the reviews i’ve read have been marvelous. I saw the electric in the shop and absolutely fell in love with it, but i’m torn. Which to choose. I want. I want. I want. My inner rocker says to go with the electric, but my practical self says to go with the acoustic. I don’t know.
Why do they have to be so beautiful?